Just give Zath the recorder. The lag has gotten progressively worse and worse for me on mph's server, that it's now become impossible for me to play with AVSers anymore. Tonight, I quit shortly, after going 1-5, and that was after being revived twice. Hell, I was dropping in and out of the party every 15 seconds, so there's really no point in me even trying to record anything. Besides, Zath probably has far more incredible moments, not to mention the ability to post flying videos. Lately, it's been nothing short of a miracle if I can win a single gun battle, even if I have the complete drop on somebody, jets react in strange ways for me, and even tank time has some truly questionable events.
The sad part is that when I play with randoms during the day, I do much, much better. Today I posted consecutive games of; 26-1, 24-2, 20-4, 18-6, 29-3, 31-8, and 18-9, being the top point earner for both sides each game. Granted, not all of these were walking maps, nor were they filled with L100 colonels, unlike mph's Aftermath set, but still...there's something definitely wrong. Honestly, the game has long since become what I would call "a game" every time I play. I'm tired of being angry all the time. I'm tired of bitching. I'm tired of watcing everyone else rack up the kills while I drag the team down and die constantly. I'm just plain tired.
But it's not just BF3, nor is it just the server. I'm finding that there's not much joy in any game I play lately. I don't know what it is, but it either seems like work or it seems boring. I've never once in my life had a moment like this. Having played and loved video games since I was a child, way back to Pac-Man and Asteroids in the arcade, I've never thought that I'd put down the controller once and for all. And yet, here I am. Pondering retirement. Considering a serene environment free from frustration. I don't know what's going to happen, but I need some time to get some perspective. I stilll look forward to seeing posts and vids here, however, so keep it up, guys. Sorry about the no-show race, and the wishy-washyness, but it's likely that Zath would have won anyway, and it's better for everyone here in the long run anyway. Thanks for the opportunity and the good times over the past months, fellas!
